We began the Seton homeschool curriculum today. We fought, he yelled, I yelled, I cried, he tried to comfort me. We tried to work again, he yelled, I cried. Ok so what I am getting at is that it was difficult. He doesn't want to work ( Catholic school, even homeschool is writing intense), and he is very turned off by the depth with which Catholic teachings are embedded in the curriculum. We are Catholic, but not terrible stringent practicers, and he doesn't really believe in Catholicism at this point in his life. The best I can get out of him is agnostic. I struggle with this aspect in particular, because he has a point on many of his arguments. The Catholic raised me, though wants to say "just believe it," or at least "just accept it as the way of Catholicism." I guess that second part is me. I don't necessarily buy what they say, but I am ok with them saying it because that is just what Catholicism is. I do wish he had some level of faith. I never expect him in the pew praying everyday, but a little spiritual life would be good for him. I guess, though, that even the very faithful teenagers go through a phase of questioning belief. I don't know.
After fighting and breaking down and freaking out- the nurturer in him came out. He took Elias out of my hair so I could take a shower and cool off, he played with him and made a terrible mess of my bed ( which his nutty mother cried about). He was telling me how I was "going to leave them with Craig and go out to a movie when Craig got home- no choice- you need a break." He took Elias downstairs for a little while later and gave me another break.
I tell you- that boy can drive me NUTS NUTS NUTS, but he also takes care of me. He always has been this way. He's the 1st to fill me with rage and the 1st to take care of my pain in whatever way he can. Even when he was a toddler, when I had really had too much, he calmed and almost soothed me. He would do things like rub my hands or shoulders.
Me and that kid have been such a roller coaster. He's my little man, my buddy. I try so hard to be gentle with him. He deserves it. I just fall apart when he keeps hitting my buttons over and over again. When things get too rough, he usually tries to make me laugh or alleviate my frustration in some other way. I am thankful for him.
A place for me to ramble :)
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pst - I couldn't stand Seton either! I did it for 8th grade. WAY too much busy work for my fast (at the time) brain and yes, too much religion for me at the time too. *HUGS*
http://www.k12.com/curriculum_and_products/participating_schools_in_virginia/
Have you considered K12? It's homeschooling but then it isn't. It is secular which he might appreciate and you would have some flexibility to enroll him in courses at his pace but there is still a teacher overseeing everything which helps reduce the parent as teacher conflicts.
Thank you Sara- we are totally looking into that. I could also really use a break on the tuition next year- the one we are useing isn't cheap.
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