hmmm

I was trying to wait, cause I have had some non sticky pregnancy’s in the past, but I have a terribly big mouth and I keep sharing here and there anyway, so I thought I’d just go a head and tell you all. I am about 5 weeks 5 days by LMP. I lost both the others near 6 weeks, so since I am starting to accept this, send me sticky vibes J It was really funny cause I was feeling that baby hungry issue several weeks back, but after thinking about it- I had TOTALLY gotten over it ( for a myriad of reasons). I was thinking “no, now is not really a good time after all”. There were no accidents that I was aware of, I was just 2 days later that I expected ( which isn’t really late for me since I have an irregular cycle), and I took a test on a whim- and there it was- two pink lines--too curious!!!

At first I was in shock, now I am still a little in the disbelief thing- mostly cause birth hurts!!! I also can’t imagine how I am going to handle a teenager, a toddler and a newborn all at once! I am sure, as with all mothers, I’ll make due, but my spouse isn’t real into dealing with the harder parts of parenting ( like night time parenting) ( one of the reasons I decided what I have is enough). I am going to be so tired! I am betting after surviving the 1st year, though, it will be great for the little ones to have each other to play with J
On the other hand, clearly, that was a significant part of me that wasn’t ready to be done with the baby thing. J I’ll be looking for newborn diapers soon, since I figure that is all I really need. I gave away many of my slings, but since I can make them myself, I’ll just make more. I was dying to try some more of those little baby wrapping techniques J There are a ton of Elias’s clothes still in close circulation for a boy, and plenty of girls around me that are willing to share clothes for a girl. I’ve given away most of my baby stuff, figuring on no more, but the one thing I figured out with Elias, is that I really don’t need all that stuff. The only thing I used beyond clothes and diapers was the bouncy seat- so I had a close soft place to set him while I cooked ( I don’t like wearing babies while cooking- makes me nervous).

Ok so there is it- Sometime in late June